Just had to jump................

I JUST HAD TO JUMP By Whitney Kemp, Nov. 2006

I was lead on made to believe and treated as if I were of worth. To him I was worth one thing, kind of like a trophy he could show off and talk into doing anything. I let my guard down, was it really winter love? Or was it a comfort of feeling as if someone actually loved and adored me? I was on a downward slope, a roller coaster headed towards the end. No ups, just a downward pull and the only way to get out was to jump off and grab hold of something to climb back up to the top. My heart told me to jump, but was I strong enough to grasp and climb? Or would the rollercoaster eventually take me back up to where I needed to be spiritually? I tried to believe it would, but I knew at that moment I needed to jump. Faith was all I needed to get back up there and he could not help me. We were once there and nothing was done, so I jumped! My fingers grasped the first bar I could grab. I tightly held on and began to climb, then a weight attached and I started to slip. Next to me was him. He had jumped after me, prying each finger one by one trying to get me to let go. I fought until I could no longer fight and I let go.

At that instant, my life was over. I was done trying to fight him and I had given up. Free falling and eyes closed I felt a warm had grab mine and all my fear was gone. Looking down seeing him fall farther and farther, I noticed I was no longer falling. I looked up and saw nobody but could still feel the warm, gentle hand in mine. Out of the brightness another hand reached down. The moment I grabbed on another familiar feeling of comfort and love came over me, So many memories rushing over me by just the touch of a hand. Then I saw him, a friend, a familiar face of a young man who once shared love with me was there again. He lifted me up, held me, and led me back to the path which would lead me up to the top. Side by side we climbed together, leading one another to other paths which still might only lead us to the top, to the place where we always wanted to be. And although I lost something that I thought was perfect, which was not. And my not always have the young man who was always there to lift me back up, I know I will always have the warm hand in mine that I couldn’t see, I JUST HAD TO JUMP!

A day at the lake!

we may not have had the most perfect weather, but it was soooo good to get away ! we also did some pretty sweet wave running and tubing. Big mable was treatin me and mal real well.. hahahah she bout killed us, but it was a RIOT! hahah

i know what your all thinkin....... dang that water looks real good... and it was .. it was perfect! haha

as for the guys... they had a real good time.. TEXTING THEIR GIRLFRIENDS! pretty lamo, but whatev they were real nice and took care of us ladies! all but the goob "er" hahah

Bear Lake Adventure!!!

bear lake was quite the interesting journey this year... it started with a little drama... but we wont go there! Then we jumped in the truck with mal gal and headed off... well katie and her cravings led us to wendy's for some chicken nuggets and we hit a huge huge pot hold and jacked her rim of the trailer and the wheel was done for! luckily we said a prayer on the way up cause we defiantly were being watched out over... we tried everything to fix it and nothing would work...we could fix and buy a new tire and rim, but nothing was open that late. For some reason i though it would be great for us to go over to wal mart and just see but my idea was overlooked many a time cause the tire center was closed! well we decided while the boys were being boys to just go over there anywho while they were spending hours attempting to just fix it! When we got there we walked back to the tire center and there it was...... the very last tire in stock rim and all made especially for a trailer. the best part was, it was only fifty dollars. What a blessing when we relized it was the same size! we got it and were on our way.. here are a couple pics from our journey!


for what is happening at the moment... we are quite pleasant! hahahah

faith is all ya need to fix a flat with no spare at 12:00 am

and we did it!!! hahahah bear lake here we flippin come! yahoooooo

Called to serve- poem for jay!

You were called to serve
on a warm June day
to a place so far from here

Where children of god
are waiting for you
to bring the gospel near

With a smile on your face
and a willing heart
you anxiously prepare

to start your journey
and preach his word
to all the people there.

Oh my best friend
Im proud of you
and look forward to the day

when you'll return
a better man
who serves him day to day

i love you much
and thank you too
for the example that you are

if i didn't have you
to inspire me
I'd never had made it this far

your example is one
that to me will remain
forever in my heart

and i thank the lord
every day
for never tearing us apart

So remember this
for the next two years
that I'm always here for you

that your in my heart
and your in my prayers
through all the struggles you may go through

I love you jay
with all my heart
and have faith that you will be

a strong and faithful servant of god
to the people of Tennessee

by Whitney Kemp

Goodbye Jay!!!

efy- august 2002
Jays farewell- August 2007



well today has been intense... yup pretty intense... as you all know and tease me about.. I have been on the market and have been dating. But aint found nothin yet.. atleast nothing i didnt already have!!! Today was Jason's farewell and it was amazing to see him up there! He has grown up alot and it was really awesome to see how much he has. I feel blessed that i was able to see him not only grow physically and mentally, but spiritually! Well i though i was gonna make it through the day with out crying .. until i had to hug him and say goodbye! I just love that kid and always will! i will miss my best friend!!!!